Ike

There is a homeless guy that is almost always standing at the light when you cross over I-45 to get to Scarsdale.

He's like a good boyfriend you can count on.  He's consistent.

A good man can be hard to come by these days...

Spective

As I get older I gain perspective.

Usually the same perspective someone older tried to give me but I didn't take.

I'm still getting older.

I hope I can take the offered perspective along the way.

Clive Staples

"I do not of course mean that the words 'Thy will be done' are merely a submission.  They should, and if we make progress they will increasingly, be the voice of joyful desire, free of hunger and thirst, and I argue very heartily that to treat them simply as a clause of submission or renunciation greatly impoverished the prayer.  But though they should be something far more and better than resigned or submissive, they must not be less; they must be that at least.  And as such they necessarily discipline all the succeeding clauses." 

C. S. Lewis~ Petitionary Prayer: A Problem Without an Answer  

I LIKE CAKE!

A lot.

Especially Key Lime Pie Cake.

I had 2 pieces before bed tonight.

Stupid cake.

I'm Awesome

It's recently been brought to my attention that the older I get, the more I learn about myself.  Likes, dislikes, introvert, extrovert, vices, tastes, opinions, fears, and so on.

Yet, contrary to what I wish for, the more I learn about myself, the more I learn how NOT awesome I actually am.  (please, don't post any affirming comments telling me you think I'm awesome. this isn't a cry out for praise just observations) :)

I've realized there is little left to be discovered about ourselves as life goes on in the way of "awesome".  We find out all the good stuff early on, because every humans favorite person is themselves.  It's natural: 

"I've got great hair."

"Sports come naturally to me."

"People like me."

"I'm a go-getter."

"I'm well traveled."

"I'm so authentic."

"I'm so giving."

"I know a lot about little insignificant things that I like to bring up in every conversation I have." ;)

And the list goes on. 

 Don't hear me wrong though.  I do think that there are many people that are very in touch with the fact that they have some faults and are always working towards change.  Therefore they get to find out more good stuff!

But, as I said earlier there's been much brought to my attention that is not awesome recently.

To be candid:

I'm a terrible speller.

I love change but am often a wuss when it's time to take a risk.

I think I'm right too often.

I think about me extremely to often.

I love the praise of others too much.

I often find myself seeking out that praise.

I care too much about my appearance.

I'm a lover of money.

I'm SO controlling.

I'm so afraid of failure.

I talk about the fact that I'm a product of grace too little.

I'm harsh and unmerciful.

I don't answer my phone unless I want to talk to you.

My thoughts and tone of voice are often condescending.

I'm pious. 

Really I could keep writing, but I think I've lost a few already with the lengthy post. 

All this to say...I'm not awesome.  And it's nice, though tiring, to know I'm not going to run out of things to work on with myself any time soon

Whelmed

I'm overwhelmed. 

I prefer being under it so much more.

Cinco

Here's a loud, 

"Thank YOU Mexico!" 

for half-price margaritas today. 

*I turned 23 Saturday.  I'll start investing in anti-wrinkle cream next year.

Posh Humanitarians

It's has never been so chic to be a humanitarian or environmentalist. 

Why is that a problem?

I have been apart of, overheard, and suffered through more conversations about these topics more in the last year than my whole life combined.  

Though recently I have heard several people (mostly Christians) say, "Well, it's just so trendy to care about Africa/poverty/AIDS/hybrid cars/etc."  All of this said with a bit of distain in their tone.  This is my response to that:

AWESOME!!!

How wonderful that it is trendy to care about the rest of the world!  How wonderful that people are doing more than every to fight hunger in 3rd World countries!  How wonderful that people are trying to educate themselves on the state of the world we live in today!  

EVEN if it is because it makes them look better at dinner parties.

EVEN if it is because they get a tax break.

EVEN if it is because movie stars are doing it.

So....

Let's (especially Christians) get over it.  Let's do more to be trendy!  And yes, I know it's not trendy to be trendy.

Get over it.

Panera Bread Dictations

I sit in the loner section at Panera Bread.

It's right when you walk in to the left, and during lunch time it's filled with loners with their lap tops and books.  I love it.

I think it's when you hit about 67 that you decide, "I don't give a #&@$ about anything." 

"You can see my bra through this shirt?....What of it?"

"I cut you in line?....What of it?"

"You can smell my baby powder and hair from your table?...What of it?"

"I entered the Hwy at 35 mph?....What of it?" 

"I put 3 packs of salt on everything I eat?...What of it?"

Why do people walk around with ear buds in their ears always listening to music?  Is your inner monologue that lame? 

IRS

The government took my money.

$445.00  

Good thing I don't eat much.

I'm going to France tomorrow!

In the words of Sister...

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Feelings Array (in no particular order)

Lost but unsure how

Anticipation; future...to...foreign

Young in every sense of the word

Abandoned, yet it doesn't seem justified

Hungry; mainly for pizza

American (if my vote counts)

Unsurprising 

Feminine; and every emotional cliche that comes with it

Logical...though isn't it void of the emotion?

Anxious...but about what? 

White People

Seriously one on the funniest/truest things I've read in a long time.

http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.wordpress.com

A Valentine's Day Conversation

Via Text messaging with an old friend-

B: "Have fun being in love tonight...i on the other hand will be killing myself."

Me: "Ha...remember how much work love is.  You did it once. Try to recall it if you will."

B: "Hard work is better than having no work i have come to realize."

Me: "That's good man wisdom.  I'm going to quote you on that."

B: "Thats why they call me whiskers"

Much love, on the day of love.

People

In between students I ran up to Starbucks at the Barnes and Noble to grab coffee and hang out with Dottie.  As I was leaving there was a table of people outside playing chess that consisted of: 

A transvestite with very big forearms (short one more operation)

2 Western Europe foreigners

1 very creepy American 

And a chain smoker.

How did they find each other?

I love people :)

O Christmas Tree

We just put up our Christmas tree and are decorating.   I miss you baby sister!

Tis the season

I'm not really sure if they think those clip-on pony tail hair pieces look real or not.  But they don't. Ever.

Also, I have recently realized that I become much less of a cool person during the holidays.  My radio in my car has been on 99.1 since Thanksgiving.  I keep adding people to my Christmas list because I like present shopping so much.  I made a mandatory rule that all wrapping paper used at my house has to match if it's going under the tree.  Contrary to normal I've become very smiley.  And every time I see the giant Christmas tree in the mall I clasp my hands together in joy and smile using all my teeth.  

Tis the season.  

Panera

Every Tuesday or Wednesday of each week I have about an hour a half for lunch, so I come and sit at Penera Bread.  It's really climbed the list of favorite "part of the week".  I adore alone time spent surrounded by other people.  And I love the thought process that that follows in that sort of an environment...

- What will I be like when I'm 75 years old?

- What will LIFE be like when I'm 25 years old?

- Young children in public places is the best kind of birth control around.

- Lord, let me love people the way you love people.

- He created such a capacity in us to love, and too often I end up wasting so much of it loving my self.

- I always have, and always will like the way a tall man looks in business clothes 

- John Mayer is so good at what he does, because his lyrics are not trite or easy...they make you say, "YEAH!  I feel that way too!"

- There's a man dressed like Indiana Jones eating two tables over...oh right, it's Halloween.

Though there is pain...

"...when I wake up, I am still with you."       ~Psalm 139