I LIKE CAKE!

A lot.

Especially Key Lime Pie Cake.

I had 2 pieces before bed tonight.

Stupid cake.

I'm Awesome

It's recently been brought to my attention that the older I get, the more I learn about myself.  Likes, dislikes, introvert, extrovert, vices, tastes, opinions, fears, and so on.

Yet, contrary to what I wish for, the more I learn about myself, the more I learn how NOT awesome I actually am.  (please, don't post any affirming comments telling me you think I'm awesome. this isn't a cry out for praise just observations) :)

I've realized there is little left to be discovered about ourselves as life goes on in the way of "awesome".  We find out all the good stuff early on, because every humans favorite person is themselves.  It's natural: 

"I've got great hair."

"Sports come naturally to me."

"People like me."

"I'm a go-getter."

"I'm well traveled."

"I'm so authentic."

"I'm so giving."

"I know a lot about little insignificant things that I like to bring up in every conversation I have." ;)

And the list goes on. 

 Don't hear me wrong though.  I do think that there are many people that are very in touch with the fact that they have some faults and are always working towards change.  Therefore they get to find out more good stuff!

But, as I said earlier there's been much brought to my attention that is not awesome recently.

To be candid:

I'm a terrible speller.

I love change but am often a wuss when it's time to take a risk.

I think I'm right too often.

I think about me extremely to often.

I love the praise of others too much.

I often find myself seeking out that praise.

I care too much about my appearance.

I'm a lover of money.

I'm SO controlling.

I'm so afraid of failure.

I talk about the fact that I'm a product of grace too little.

I'm harsh and unmerciful.

I don't answer my phone unless I want to talk to you.

My thoughts and tone of voice are often condescending.

I'm pious. 

Really I could keep writing, but I think I've lost a few already with the lengthy post. 

All this to say...I'm not awesome.  And it's nice, though tiring, to know I'm not going to run out of things to work on with myself any time soon

Whelmed

I'm overwhelmed. 

I prefer being under it so much more.