Hindsight

My prayer and petition as of late has been the longing for hindsight of the present.  So what it really boils down to, is me not wanting to deal with faith.  Sure I want it...but there's always a work to be done in the process of it all.  

Bonhoeffer wrote, in "The Cost of Discipleship",  that the two statements, "only he who believes is obedient, and only he who is obedient believes", are joined.  "It is quite unbiblical to hold the first proposition without the second."  

But I know that when that choice is made to be obedient and it is followed by hurt, there is a special kind of peace and faith that mingles in the midst of it all.  It helps soften the edges and makes you look forward to the hindsight instead of fearfully waiting on it.